Who I am

I am a stay at home mom of two kids who are a year and 42 mins apart to the day!
I am a die hard Steelers Fan. Football Fan all around!
I am a girlfriend to an amazing man.
I am a pet owner.
I am 20lbs overweight.
I am a book worm.
I am a Photographer.
I am a Sister.
I am a Daughter.
I am a Aunt.
I am a Niece.
I am a Pittbull owner (Shes only half but it counts!)
I am a Freebie Hunter.
I am Divorced.
I am a Cleanaholic.
I am a too honest for most people chick.
I am a cook.
I am a Chainsaw,gun,truck loving female.
I am a Ford Owner.
I am a Vermonter.
I am a Christian.
I am a Hard Worker.
I am a devoted.
I am a Child at heart.
I am a Recycle freak.
I am a Psychology loving person.
I am a hard ass.
I am Me.
I am Hillary but take on a persona to help fight my fears.

My name is Raven and I suffer from Severe Anxiety and this is my journey with it. This is my story. This is my life. This is so much more then your average blog. Learn something,Come and join while I prove the world wrong with what people think about Anxiety and what Anxiety really is about.

The nick name Raven I have had for going on 11 years.  It helps me deal with so much more then people realize. As Raven I feel more powerful and when I do I can shut my anxiety down...for the most part. Sadly its never that easy but it helps and the name came from my dear friend who I miss dearly. She lives states away from me now.

I can not explain to a T what my body feels when anxiety strikes but I am dying to explain how my mind works. So many people think its a simple thing to cure and sometimes it is because there is millions of types of anxiety and some are just a shyness or nerves. Mine is a full blown anxiety. Is mine as bad as others no but in my day to day life I have met no one who has it like I do. I have met a lot of people who have said to me "I never understood anxiety" Or "I never realized how severe it is" .
I don't get disability,I don't live off the state so I am not out for a pity party. 
For so many years though my anxiety has put a damper on my relationships with people...it has put a damper on me finding me. 

Hopefully with this blog that will end.